it was fun while it lasted

sorry to abandon and disappoint

but we both knew this wasn't ever going to be the way it was

this makes me think of the ending song in portal

it's like i'm dead glados

aw

it's time i faced that i don't have the passion that i used to

i could have always made the time

but i didn't make the effort

i spend my free time waiting for more free time

and every day passes that way

i want to be published

properly, i mean

a book

a whole book that i can be proud of every word

i realize that's unlikely

not the published part

(come on, let's be real, look at half the crap that's out there)

the proud of every word part

looking back on what you wrote yesterday

you'll always hate it

well maybe not always and not all of it

but there will always be somethings you didn't like

i turned down a career in journalism because

i didn't want to write for others

i didn't want to write on demand

i wanted to write what i felt in every moment

from every point of view i could

i wanted to split myself into as many people as i could

and write each of their stories

and i wanted to show the world

(or anyone that might stumble across it and like the cover enough)

this is for real this time

i've been teasing you with here i am and there i go for far too long

i'm officially done with this blog

still though

don't have the heart to delete

signed,